Retreat

September is always a month of regrouping.  DragonCon tends to be a pivot in my year, the weekend that divides the buildup from the come down.  This year was no exception, especially with the added excitement and work of doing the Tarot 101 presentation.  When you combine that stress with the stress of Irma (and…

Poem- Clearing/cleansing spell for renewal

Clearing/cleansing spell for renewal Cleaning and clearing, this space I renew. Widdershins I travel, stagnation to undo. I dust and I sweep, I get rid of clutter, To let in new energy, the light of the mother. No more will my life be ruled by these things. I’m ready for new energy the universe now…

Poem- Throwaway Day

Throwaway Day Limbs heavy and sore, eyelids drooping. But I keep thinking about symmetry in art, And in nature, and in the heart. Soma (350mg) keeps me from the worst of it. It also keeps me dull, weak. So I feel every cold breeze as pain, Every move an assault. My mind creates all the…

Stones for self-care

I’ve blogged a few times about how winter, and January in particular, are really tough for me.  The loop of cold -> fibro pain -> depression -> fibro pain -> depression -> fibro pain -> depression compounds itself into an overall shitty time for me.  I’ve spent a lot more days in bed this month…

My (non) writing life 4/24/15

Yeah, I’ve blown this off for two weeks now.  I also haven’t been using my ‘timesheet’ method of self-motivation.  There are reasons.  The main one being that each time I start a new medicine, I get to adapt to a new round of side effects.  This last one gave me the ‘sleeping 18 hours/day’ side…

My Writing Life, April 5, 2015

Wow. I totally blew this off yesterday. Didn’t even think about it once. I had kind of a rough day, between the pollen getting into my system and inflaming everything that’s already inflamed (my joints always get swollen and painful when the yellow stuff is falling), and some emotional stuff over on Facebook. Basically, it…

The Witches Reel

I have a confession.  I’m obsessed with this song.  I found it in the very earliest days of Napster, and have never been able to find the same version again, though all versions seem to be pretty good.  Here are a few.     I have to say that this last group looks like a…

40th birthday in Savannah

So, we took a trip.  There’s really not much else to say.  It was obviously wonderful.  (I love travel more than anything else in this world). It was really just perfect and amazing, and Bear and I needed it. Highlights Day 1: Our hotel (The River Street Inn) was one of the coolest places I’ve…

Psychic Reading, 9/21/2014

I took my sister out for her birthday today, and we hit our favorite metaphysical/new age stores.  At the second one, we just happened upon a psychic fair, and as we’d been talking about our life paths, she decided to buy us each a reading.  (Typical, I take her out for her birthday, and she…

Pagan Blog Project Week 31- Procrastination

I meant to get this in earlier.  I meant to do an interesting and informative post about protective stones.  I meant to accomplish things today. However, I’m on my second day of very little sleep, and I’ll be waking up early again tomorrow.  The fibro is creeping up, and I can’t bring myself to focus…

Spirit Branch

So, I was supposed to be super productive today.  I was going to finish my Full Moon Offering incense, write about my 5th patron deity, maybe write a bit more about my complicated relationship with Inanna, clean my side of the room, bathe the doggies, maybe even collect some cherry blossoms. It didn’t work out…

Energy Redirection

I’ve been going through a bit of a crisis lately.   The fibro has pretty much changed the way I look at everything.  It made me reexamine how I spend my energy, who I give it to, and what actually feeds me energy back.  I’ve spent the last 2 years getting more weak, feeling less ME….

Warmth

Today Bear and I are here at our local Korean sauna, doing the annual ‘I don’t celebrate my birthday anymore, but I still want to go to the sauna’ trip.  I’ve been looking forward to this for weeks. There are so many good things about this place.  Right now I’m sitting in the red clay…

How fibro feels.

I try not to bitch and whine too much about health stuff here.  Honestly, nobody really wants to know that much detail about the pain that others go through, and who can blame them?  Life is filled with pain and health trouble, so why dwell on it? But here’s the thing.  I tell people that…

How fibro feels.

I try not to bitch and whine too much about health stuff here.  Honestly, nobody really wants to know that much detail about the pain that others go through, and who can blame them?  Life is filled with pain and health trouble, so why dwell on it? But here’s the thing.  I tell people that…

Another naNOwrimo.

I tried.  I really did.  I got to 17,451 words.  But I haven’t written in the past 7 days, and I just don’t see myself making it, even though I logically know I could just bust my ass and finish it. There are a few reasons (excuses). One, sitting in bed for long hours is…

Health issues and the drive to have fun, dammit!

So, we recently went through another bout of health scares here in the Ravenson household.  What a great way to pull my head out of my ass and put everything RIGHT back into perspective. Long story long: I went to the ER for chest pains and trouble breathing.  It’s not really new, I’ve been having…

DragonCon debriefing

DragonCon is really my favorite holiday of the year for various reasons.  First, I get to see friends that I don’t see at any other time of year.  And it’s always so familiar and lovely, and I can’t hug them enough when I do see them.  Second, there are amazing writing panels there that really…

Things to let go of.

I’m working on a ritual that I’ll be doing on the new moon on June 8th.  I’m feeling bogged down in everything lately, and I need to let go.  I need to clear my brain so that I can move onto bigger and better.  I’ve internalized a lot of anger and sadness about a lot…

5/13

Today was my first day off in a while.. The fibro has been screaming for the past few days due to stress, long hours, and virtually no sleep. I woke up today already hurty and weak. So I decided to keep my goals easy for today: burritos, henna, and kyphi. What I ACTUALLY did was…