I don’t think I’m saying anything too surprising if I point out that spirituality waxes and wanes with the tides of our lives. Sometimes it can be difficult to grasp that ethereal connection to the nebulous that sustains us at other times. That’s about where I’m at right now.
I’m still surrounded by all the trappings of ‘a witchy life’ (I’ll address how much I hate the word ‘witchy’ some other time), and I’m still doing my tarot readings that I enjoy so much. But I’ve stopped meditating, I’ve stopped my daily practice, I’ve stopped trying to connect.
This is something that shows up both internally and externally. I’ve also stopped trying to express myself so much. I feel like anything I say on social media is just adding to the noise right now, and I feel like I’ve lost my voice. I just have this feeling of not having anything important to say, and not wanting to say anything that isn’t important.
Take a look at this post, for example. I’m wondering if I should even post it. I probably will, because it might resonate for some, but it’s also self-indulgent and I know that. Take a look at this blog as a whole, even. The only posts I really try to keep up with are my Magickal Month posts, and they get very few readers. Why keep writing if nobody is connecting with my words? Again, I feel like I’m just contributing to the noise.
My creativity has also tanked with this new job that takes all of my attention and energy. It’s a perfect trifecta of lack: spirituality/social connection/creativity. Is this the beginning of some transformation into a new phase of my life, or just a funk I’m in right now? Who can say?
I’m not looking for positive feedback here, just a little self-expression to hopefully get some creativity going. Maybe I’ll come up with something fantastic to do with this very expensive website I keep paying for. Maybe I’ll fade back and just be quiet. Who knows?
At any rate, blessed be. I hope you’re all having a lovely Summer. <3