Funny story, I actually started this post over 2 weeks ago. And then forgot about it. And then decided to write something about how I haven’t been feeling myself lately. So this is apparently both a theme and a symptom of what I’m talking about right now.
This is the text from the original post:
“I’m realizing that I’ve been giving too much mental and emotional real estate to things that are draining me. I have a tendency to do that. So I’m taking a little time to reevaluate where my energy goes, as is often necessary with chronic illness.
I want to start posting tarot pulls again, though in all honesty, like 3 people were actually reading those. I need to get a new phone so that I can continue my Bewitching the Cards series on YouTube. I want to really start collecting/testing/perfecting my recipes for my Vegan Pagan Kitchen books. I need to edit my novel. There’s a lot that I really care about that I’ve been neglecting, because my energy has been pulled in other directions. It’s time to draw a line and get back to myself, get back to what feeds me and makes me feel good about myself.”
I wrote that on August 1st. Here it is, the 17th, and I haven’t done what I said. I’ve been so scattered, so confused, so frustrated, so locked inside my own head that I haven’t been doing the things that are good for me. I haven’t been emotionally/mentally healthy. I barely even tried to celebrate Lughnassadh. However, I feel like I’ve turned a corner. I’ve drawn a line. I’ve pulled back some energy. In short, I feel better.
Also, I have a great new phone, so I can start recording videos again! I’ve been making new friends on Facebook and other places, and I’ve started trying to repair things with the Lion. I feel like I can see a way out of the crazy, and I’m going to pursue that. I want to come up with something new and interesting to do here. Maybe a series on ingredients used in kitchen witchery? Maybe more poetry- GOOD poetry this time? Who knows?
At any rate, it’s time to get back to me, and back to doing the things that make me feel good.
Blessed be. <3