Lately I’ve been feeling some pain.  I’m not sure exactly what it is, and I don’t have insurance so finding out will be tough.  I need to get to one of the community clinics here near home, but there are so many hoops to jump through, that the idea just stresses me out.

And I know that stress is part of my problem.  The more stressed I am, the more I hurt.  So for now, I’m trying to come up with ways to do some self-healing, keeping in mind that I WILL actually get to a doctor at some point.

It’s affecting my life more and more, and it needs to go away.

I did a week-long smoothie fast the week before Ostara as a general cleansing/life reset.  It was lovely, and it actually DID help me feel better.  I had some energy problems (I was trying to wean myself off of Coke Zero too, and the headaches were HORRIBLE), and I got pretty sick of smoothies.  But I actually felt lighter, healthier, and just better.  I want more of that.

During that time, we went to a friend’s house, and she’s on a mostly raw food diet right now.  We sampled some of her snacks and WOW.  I could do that.  Not all the time, but now and again.  I was shocked and pleasantly surprised.

I’ve also been reconnecting with my spirituality, getting interested in crystal grids, and talking to other pagans.  It’s been lovely.